Roller Coaster Ride!

In my last post I shared with you how the first counseling session took a toll on me emotionally, mentally, and physically.  There was something about putting words to the silent feelings I had been carrying inside that was freeing and exhausting at the same time.  Every Friday after my session, I found that I spent a lot of time in deep reflection.  I remember a few people making the assumption that I was mad because I was not at all talkative.  And Saturday mornings found me tired and needing sleep.  

I remember telling my counselor in my first session that everything, absolutely everything, in my life was messed up.  And I meant it.  I was not able to focus, the most menial of tasks took enormous effort on my part, my spiritual life was not what it should be.  As I mentioned earlier, there were other factors that were adding to my anxiety and depression. 

I felt like I was on a really wicked, nasty, roller coaster ride that was never ending.  Whoever was responsible for stopping the ride had gone on a leave of absence and failed to get anyone to replace them.  Here I was stuck on this gut wrenching, nauseating ride, unable to get off.   When you are on a carnival ride, and not feeling well and really wanting off, all the screaming in the world does not help.  There is so much noise that no one can hear you, or if by some slim chance they do hear you they choose to ignore you, or they think you can't possibly be serious, or they think you need to grow up and get over it. Coas

You who are on a journey of deep grieving know very well what I am talking about.  And how I wish I could help take away your pain and sense of helplessness.  I wish there was a simple answer, but there isn't.  There isn't a quick fix for grieving.  I can tell you that eventually the roller coaster will slow down over what can be a long period of time, but it will slow down!  In the meantime, hang on with all your might and with the strength that comes from the Lord, and keep in mind that there is

Sunshine After the Storm

Blessings Always!

Betsy