Discombobulated

I love the word "discombobulated."  It's just a fun word to say.  However it is not a fun way to feel - confused, upset, frustrated.  Some synonyms for discombobulated are addled, shaken, thrown, undone.  If you were to look the word up in the dictionary, it may very well have my picture next to it.  Hey, maybe your picture is there too!  

We probably all feel this way at least once a day.  However, when you are constantly in a state of discombobulation it can really be emotionally draining. This was the state I found myself in as my counseling continued.  

I continued to struggle with needing to see proof of some kind that my son was actually gone.  I had found out that the clothes he had been wearing at the time of the accident were now gone.  There went that idea.  So, what was left?  I contemplated this for awhile and decided that perhaps I could request from the Highway Patrol the photos from the scene of the accident.  It would be a gruesome set of photos, I had no doubt about that.  But it would also give me what I wanted - proof.  But, wait, did I really want proof?  Did I really want some sort of closure?  Having that proof might mean I had to let him go. Could I really do that?  I had a decision to make.

Life altering decisions can be difficult.  And sometimes, the more we mull over them the more discombobulated we get. Oh, don't get me wrong, the decisions we make in life need to be thought out very well. We've all heard that when we are facing a life changing decision that it can be helpful to make a list of the pros and cons.  Maybe sometimes we need to wait before moving forward, sometimes we might need to go a different direction, and sometimes we just need to stop thinking about all the things that could go wrong and think about all the things that could go right and forge ahead.  Straddling the fence can get painful after a while and gets us nowhere.   I believe it's important, when facing a difficult choiceto pray about it and seek counsel from people whose judgement we trust.  But ultimately we are the ones that have to make that final decision.  

If you are struggling with a decision, maybe this quote from author, Max Lucado will encourage you, it did me!  "Life is short.  Time slips.  Days pass. Years fade.  Life ends.  And what we came to do must be done while there is time!"   Don't forget my friends, there is

Sunshine After the Storm

Blessings

Betsy