I Became a Stripper

Counseling continued.  I will say this, if you are considering counseling, prepare to strip.  I didn't anticipate ever being a stripper.  But, during my time in counseling, layer after layer of gunk and junk were stripped away.  Three years after George's death I am still in counseling, just not every week.  I find that I am continually needing to strip off yucky stuff.  You must remember that my son's death was the primary reason I started counseling, but there were other issues I knew I needed to work through as well.

I continued to be surprised at the way words came out of my mouth, without any obvious prompting from my counselor,.  There were things from my childhood, teen years, my first marriage, that just came popping out of my mouth like popcorn.  It was amazing to me to hear many of those things come out.  I hadn't even known consciously that they were in my head.  Our human minds are interesting.  Many things are buried deep in our subconscious and probably it is best they stay there.  Other things need to come out for healing to take place.

That's why I encourage you to really do your homework if and when you decide to seek counseling for whatever issue(s) you may be having.  I've encouraged you before to seek wise counsel.  You need to have a counselor that you can trust and feel comfortable enough to scream, cry, and even have a panic attack in front of - yes, I've done that too.  You want a counselor that you do not feel embarrassed or ashamed in front of when you are doing your stripping.  (I'm smiling, but I am very serious.)  

When you take a shower or bath, you probably don't do so with your clothes on.  You can't get clean that way! If you want to begin healing and functioning again with a newer and fresher perspective on life, you may have to become a stripper too!  You'll be in good company  ; )  Try your best to smile, because there will be 

Sunshine After the Storm

Blessings

Betsy